I can't believe it's been a month since I last posted. Shocking.
Truth is, I haven't felt much like sitting at the laptop. When I have felt like doing something I've been trying to catch up on the tidying and cleaning, and there's ALWAYS washing to be done with 5 people in the house. Thankfully the sun is out now, so we're using the drier a lot lot less. Then there's the garden to tidy and seeds to plant. I feel a little worn out sometimes. I feel like I'm always trying to keep everyone else happy most of the time, and someone always has a demand to make on my time. Having said that it's pretty easy most of the time, and as long as the girls get their nap I'm surviving and getting time to myself. It's not the new addition that's causing this, it's the change in dynamics in general with the new job and the girls growing up. This would probably still be happening if we were only a 4 person family still. Having a 3rd baby is definitely easier than the first or second. It feels like he's always been here, and definitely no extra strain. Just the normal routine. And more to love... I love my kids.
Nick's been leaving his iPhone home with me since starting his new job, since he has no signal at work and has plenty o other toys to play with... oh, and also my phone is broken. This means it's a heck of a lot easier for me to take photos with his phone, which I nearly always have on me... and then upload to facebook while I'm trapped underneath one or more sleeping/feeding children. So I haven't felt horrible about not uploading them here, because a lot of my friends are on facebook.
We've been part time EC-ing (for some reason I'm liking that term less and less... maybe NIH- natural infant hygiene.... I dunno...) and I've tried a few full days recently... which was a good thing since I later realised I had no clean little nappies! I'd like to write a full post on that... but time!!
I've been tutoring again and I've got 3 students... 2 year 10's and 1 year 11. It's interesting as always. Nice to feel like I'm making a difference somewhere.
I've been looking wistfully at this in the last week or so. I'd love to do it mainly for my own interest and to help my family... but I would also be able to open my own practice and it would be another way to make money. Also I could meet people more like me. We don't have the money at the moment though, so it will have to remain a dream for now. One day in a few years or less I will make it happen though.
I'd like to dread my hair, but Nick is against it. Pretty much the only thing stopping me is having a friend come over to actually do it. I'd use the backcombing method I think. He's decided that since I keep going on about it we'll do some photo shopping and see if I would in fact look totally ridiculous as he suspects. I do personally suspect I am not cool enough... and people will look at me even more like I'm a freak. But I'm past caring.
Oh, and I'm back to feeling isolated and as if I have no friends. I know it's not true. I have LOTS of friends... they all just live so far away... the closest friends I really have are 20min away (you know who you are) and we're really struggling for people to hang out with occasionally in the day. I need to grab the bull by the horns and organise a Daventry HEors meet up on a regular basis. I feel like I don't really have anything in common with most people around me. I am a freak who likes to do odd things like breastfeeding... co sleeping... birthing at home... preparing my own food and trying not to let my family eat junk... ECing... cloth nappying... using herbal remedies. While I might find someone who is into one or two of those things... the rest will be totally out there for them. It's hard when some of your real passions are just pure weirdness to other people. It's hard to try to suggest something to someone and all you see is the look of pure disgust/amusement... oh it's just Hannah being weird again. I want so much to feel like a part of a community. But I don't. I think that's part of the reason I was so keen on the idea of moving, even though I knew it would be a total PITA. Being able to try to find a place for us that met my needs would be amazing. We're not moving btw. We can't afford it. Nick is selling our big car and buying a motorbike. He already has all the gear. I guess at least this will mean I'll have the little Corsa back during the day, which will help a lot. We'll be able to go to the woods for picnics and visit friends.
Moving on...
We went for a walk around the block the other day and met a few new people... mainly due to Willow walking up to them and giving them big cuddles, Eve introducing us all and then them both refusing to move on and striking up a conversation. We met John on the corner, who thought I was probably done having babies "now you have your boy" (No is the answer btw) and Lesley and Pam who live a bit further away just up from the fields. Then we met an old friend Bob, who is the father of one of Nicks friends. Stood and chatted for a loooong time and the HE came up (despite efforts to avoid topic) "oh, well the only thing I worry about is socialisation..." I nearly spluttered avoiding the chuckles... because of course my home educated (sort of) children are locked away under the stairs and never go out to meet people.... clearly!! And as evidenced by our should-have-been-20-min-but-ended-up-being-an-hour trot around the block. Not only did we meet new "friends" and the girls learnt appropriate conversation but we spotted loads of lovely flowers and plants which we're trying to learn the names of (me too!!) Plus we all got our daily burst of vitamin D, which is great!
Anyway. I'm hoping to spend some time uploading some photos here tonight, Just the good ones, but I'll put them in another post I think.
Nick is due to start a 3 week stint of 7 day weeks shortly. The reason being is that the game he's working on is due for release at the end of the month (I think). Honestly it's been tough not seeing him much recently. For me and the girls. They're pretty fed up of me I think. And this is on a 6 day week. The upside is that we've already got 15days (that's 3 weeks!) of holiday amassed... and we've acquired some wonderful camping gear thanks to some friends emigrating to Oz (the only good thing about it) so I've decided we're going camping. It's going to be fun. It is.
I total... I'm feeling a little miserable right now... but generally life is good. We have everything we need and more... physically at least.
Oh, and if the lovely lady who gave us the EC supplies (felted skirt, pad and lanolin) could get in touch that would be FAB... I have some Qs about how to use the solid lanolin, I've only ever used the stuff that thenappylady sells in the white tube, which is white and more liquidy... please :) worthington.hannah AT gmail.com
Truth is, I haven't felt much like sitting at the laptop. When I have felt like doing something I've been trying to catch up on the tidying and cleaning, and there's ALWAYS washing to be done with 5 people in the house. Thankfully the sun is out now, so we're using the drier a lot lot less. Then there's the garden to tidy and seeds to plant. I feel a little worn out sometimes. I feel like I'm always trying to keep everyone else happy most of the time, and someone always has a demand to make on my time. Having said that it's pretty easy most of the time, and as long as the girls get their nap I'm surviving and getting time to myself. It's not the new addition that's causing this, it's the change in dynamics in general with the new job and the girls growing up. This would probably still be happening if we were only a 4 person family still. Having a 3rd baby is definitely easier than the first or second. It feels like he's always been here, and definitely no extra strain. Just the normal routine. And more to love... I love my kids.
Nick's been leaving his iPhone home with me since starting his new job, since he has no signal at work and has plenty o other toys to play with... oh, and also my phone is broken. This means it's a heck of a lot easier for me to take photos with his phone, which I nearly always have on me... and then upload to facebook while I'm trapped underneath one or more sleeping/feeding children. So I haven't felt horrible about not uploading them here, because a lot of my friends are on facebook.
We've been part time EC-ing (for some reason I'm liking that term less and less... maybe NIH- natural infant hygiene.... I dunno...) and I've tried a few full days recently... which was a good thing since I later realised I had no clean little nappies! I'd like to write a full post on that... but time!!
I've been tutoring again and I've got 3 students... 2 year 10's and 1 year 11. It's interesting as always. Nice to feel like I'm making a difference somewhere.
I've been looking wistfully at this in the last week or so. I'd love to do it mainly for my own interest and to help my family... but I would also be able to open my own practice and it would be another way to make money. Also I could meet people more like me. We don't have the money at the moment though, so it will have to remain a dream for now. One day in a few years or less I will make it happen though.
I'd like to dread my hair, but Nick is against it. Pretty much the only thing stopping me is having a friend come over to actually do it. I'd use the backcombing method I think. He's decided that since I keep going on about it we'll do some photo shopping and see if I would in fact look totally ridiculous as he suspects. I do personally suspect I am not cool enough... and people will look at me even more like I'm a freak. But I'm past caring.
Oh, and I'm back to feeling isolated and as if I have no friends. I know it's not true. I have LOTS of friends... they all just live so far away... the closest friends I really have are 20min away (you know who you are) and we're really struggling for people to hang out with occasionally in the day. I need to grab the bull by the horns and organise a Daventry HEors meet up on a regular basis. I feel like I don't really have anything in common with most people around me. I am a freak who likes to do odd things like breastfeeding... co sleeping... birthing at home... preparing my own food and trying not to let my family eat junk... ECing... cloth nappying... using herbal remedies. While I might find someone who is into one or two of those things... the rest will be totally out there for them. It's hard when some of your real passions are just pure weirdness to other people. It's hard to try to suggest something to someone and all you see is the look of pure disgust/amusement... oh it's just Hannah being weird again. I want so much to feel like a part of a community. But I don't. I think that's part of the reason I was so keen on the idea of moving, even though I knew it would be a total PITA. Being able to try to find a place for us that met my needs would be amazing. We're not moving btw. We can't afford it. Nick is selling our big car and buying a motorbike. He already has all the gear. I guess at least this will mean I'll have the little Corsa back during the day, which will help a lot. We'll be able to go to the woods for picnics and visit friends.
Moving on...
We went for a walk around the block the other day and met a few new people... mainly due to Willow walking up to them and giving them big cuddles, Eve introducing us all and then them both refusing to move on and striking up a conversation. We met John on the corner, who thought I was probably done having babies "now you have your boy" (No is the answer btw) and Lesley and Pam who live a bit further away just up from the fields. Then we met an old friend Bob, who is the father of one of Nicks friends. Stood and chatted for a loooong time and the HE came up (despite efforts to avoid topic) "oh, well the only thing I worry about is socialisation..." I nearly spluttered avoiding the chuckles... because of course my home educated (sort of) children are locked away under the stairs and never go out to meet people.... clearly!! And as evidenced by our should-have-been-20-min-but-ended-up-being-an-hour trot around the block. Not only did we meet new "friends" and the girls learnt appropriate conversation but we spotted loads of lovely flowers and plants which we're trying to learn the names of (me too!!) Plus we all got our daily burst of vitamin D, which is great!
Anyway. I'm hoping to spend some time uploading some photos here tonight, Just the good ones, but I'll put them in another post I think.
Nick is due to start a 3 week stint of 7 day weeks shortly. The reason being is that the game he's working on is due for release at the end of the month (I think). Honestly it's been tough not seeing him much recently. For me and the girls. They're pretty fed up of me I think. And this is on a 6 day week. The upside is that we've already got 15days (that's 3 weeks!) of holiday amassed... and we've acquired some wonderful camping gear thanks to some friends emigrating to Oz (the only good thing about it) so I've decided we're going camping. It's going to be fun. It is.
I total... I'm feeling a little miserable right now... but generally life is good. We have everything we need and more... physically at least.
Oh, and if the lovely lady who gave us the EC supplies (felted skirt, pad and lanolin) could get in touch that would be FAB... I have some Qs about how to use the solid lanolin, I've only ever used the stuff that thenappylady sells in the white tube, which is white and more liquidy... please :) worthington.hannah AT gmail.com
Oh dear, I fear that my drawing in to my shell has been a little selfish. Love you all xx Speak soon xx
ReplyDeleteHey Hannah! You know I think all Mums of little ones feel isolated from the world. The things we are passionate about are different, but the problem remains the same. We need social interactions that uplift us. I hope you find someone close that you can connect with you.. the internet is great, but proximity really makes a difference. I feel for you.. and I have been there. xxx
ReplyDeletenah dude, you have to look after you and your family first x I wouldn't expect it any other way :) Hope Wales with your boys was fab!
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